The Bright Side is:
I am done my enameling class.
I sold 5 pairs of earrings to the girls in class.
I have wicked friends who try so hard to cheer me up.
And damnit, they did a fine job.
Tonight is celtic night at the pub, which is always a good time.
I get to sleep in tomorrow, and read my book.
The weather is great, and I am getting a tan already.
On another note, the girls and I were discussing penis length in class (don't ask me why). I made a the "foot-long" gesture, and my friend Kate said something so profound it may have just changed my life.
"You know there is a difference between making love to someone, and skewering them."
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Sunday, May 27, 2007
The Post that never was
I first thought that my post for this weekend would be full of laughs. I originally wanted to share with you the hijinx that was last friday night. I wanted to tell you how I unceremoniously got drunk from too many jello shooters and ended up on my face on Vanessa's floor. How I fell down on her chair and gave myself a 2 inch by 5 inch welt-turned-bruise on my hip. Right on the spot I like to rest my hand, totally fucking up my sassy and trademark hand-on-hip stance. I did want to tell you about it all.
But alas.
I have been working my ass off these last 3 weeks (as I am sure some of you have noticed since I haven't talked to any of you in awhile). Working to get together some inventory for the annual Lilac festival here in Calgary. The table cost me (and 3 our girls) $50.00. I saved up for that one. The tent fireproofing they (lilac fest) MADE me get - $60.00. Costs of materials - 150.00. Total sales - $4.00........
If I have ever felt that my work was not good enough before, this makes me feel like I can't GIVE my work away. I marked down everything TWICE. Everyone would come in, pick up some earring say "oh how cute! I love them!" then they would look at the price and walk away! I mean jesus christ, I marked them down so low I was barely making any money. I'd mostly be breaking even only. Yet no one bought anything.
No one has any sense of value these days. It is impossible to make any kind of money as a custom jeweler when you can get the exact same thing in china for a fraction of the cost.
I have to say I am not happy at all. I have less money now then when I started. I am very upset. Lilac fest is huge, and our table was shit. I don't really want to get into the bitsy details but they gave us a table that no one could get to. I am sooo angry.
On top of all that I got the first sunburn of the summer.
I feel like an idiot, and a failure.
But alas.
I have been working my ass off these last 3 weeks (as I am sure some of you have noticed since I haven't talked to any of you in awhile). Working to get together some inventory for the annual Lilac festival here in Calgary. The table cost me (and 3 our girls) $50.00. I saved up for that one. The tent fireproofing they (lilac fest) MADE me get - $60.00. Costs of materials - 150.00. Total sales - $4.00........
If I have ever felt that my work was not good enough before, this makes me feel like I can't GIVE my work away. I marked down everything TWICE. Everyone would come in, pick up some earring say "oh how cute! I love them!" then they would look at the price and walk away! I mean jesus christ, I marked them down so low I was barely making any money. I'd mostly be breaking even only. Yet no one bought anything.
No one has any sense of value these days. It is impossible to make any kind of money as a custom jeweler when you can get the exact same thing in china for a fraction of the cost.
I have to say I am not happy at all. I have less money now then when I started. I am very upset. Lilac fest is huge, and our table was shit. I don't really want to get into the bitsy details but they gave us a table that no one could get to. I am sooo angry.
On top of all that I got the first sunburn of the summer.
I feel like an idiot, and a failure.
Sunday, May 20, 2007
The love of Change
As you grow older you realize that many things change. Things like your body, your personality, your sense of morality, and your relationships. Over the last year, as some of you know, many of these things have changed for me. But one thing in particular has changed the most - relationships.
Well, my relationships with friends anyways.
A few things have effected these changes, those being college, XBL, and grupthink.
College this year threw me into a new class, with new people. Thankfully I have met amazing new people, who I share a lot in common with. They are amazing men and women who have helped me through some weird situations this year. I bonded with a few of the people from my first year classes too, but I have made friends with pretty much everyone in these new classes. If these are the people I am to spend the next few years with, I am blessed for sure.
But you know what they say, when one door closes, a window opens. Well if college was the window, what was the door that closed? It seems so many of my friends, who I thought I would hang out with forever have drifted to the winds. Moving away, loosing touch, or breaking my heart. But I'm not overly upset, it is just part of life.
Meeting people over XBL has had its ups and downs as well. I've met some amazing people, who have been kinder and closer to me then anyone I've known in the flesh. Not having the restraints of judging someone by their appearance has the advantage of being able to really get to know someone. But some people, who I thought I knew, have still disappointed me. But there are also some who have surprised me to no end, and been there for me, to listen, to give me kind words, and even send me little pick me ups when I really need them. I love you guys.
Grupthink has introduced to me some amazing people as well. I love those guys. Even though my love for the site has diminished. I realllllly don't want to lose contact with these people. I don't want to jinx it by saying anything else.
There are also those friends, who you think you know, then just blow you away by saying something so perfect, it changes how you see them. There may be other times, when all you want from them is one kind word, and for the life of them they can't seem to say it. So when those perfect moments do finally come along...
... you realize you love them.
Well, my relationships with friends anyways.
A few things have effected these changes, those being college, XBL, and grupthink.
College this year threw me into a new class, with new people. Thankfully I have met amazing new people, who I share a lot in common with. They are amazing men and women who have helped me through some weird situations this year. I bonded with a few of the people from my first year classes too, but I have made friends with pretty much everyone in these new classes. If these are the people I am to spend the next few years with, I am blessed for sure.
But you know what they say, when one door closes, a window opens. Well if college was the window, what was the door that closed? It seems so many of my friends, who I thought I would hang out with forever have drifted to the winds. Moving away, loosing touch, or breaking my heart. But I'm not overly upset, it is just part of life.
Meeting people over XBL has had its ups and downs as well. I've met some amazing people, who have been kinder and closer to me then anyone I've known in the flesh. Not having the restraints of judging someone by their appearance has the advantage of being able to really get to know someone. But some people, who I thought I knew, have still disappointed me. But there are also some who have surprised me to no end, and been there for me, to listen, to give me kind words, and even send me little pick me ups when I really need them. I love you guys.
Grupthink has introduced to me some amazing people as well. I love those guys. Even though my love for the site has diminished. I realllllly don't want to lose contact with these people. I don't want to jinx it by saying anything else.
There are also those friends, who you think you know, then just blow you away by saying something so perfect, it changes how you see them. There may be other times, when all you want from them is one kind word, and for the life of them they can't seem to say it. So when those perfect moments do finally come along...
... you realize you love them.
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Spring Fever
Is it just me, or does everyone seem to have a spring in their step these days?
This last week I've been thinking about the podcast.
(I can hear the applause from here)
I want to get it going again, and I think spring time is the perfect time for a new installment. Some of you may not realize this, but in order to make a sex podcast, one has to be in the mood. It just goes hand in hand. If you aren't, then it sounds even more fake, and people won't get turned on - which is the point really.
I was talking to a friend of mine today, who seems to be exhibiting all the tell tale signs of spring fever. Frisky, frisky, frisky. And they are not the only one. All the girls in the studio today were play flirting with each other, something I enjoyed witnessing to no end. I pushed them on of course, I love being a sexual catalyst.
I decided that I have been in a sexual rut for far too long, and I started to feel the tingling of the fever myself. Is it just me, or have all the men shaved their beards, and all the woman their legs? Could everyone be primping themselves for a possible "encounter"? I was checking EVERYONE out... how could I not?
I got home and my friends Ryan and Alex were with Dave, in the process of making dinner. I decided to shower the remnants of the work day off, and in the process of picking out my outfit, freshly showers and naked as the day was nude, Alex just happened to walk in. I did leave the door open after all. Maybe it was the spring fever that made me leave it open. I know its the fever that makes me not care that he saw anything.
ahhhhh ..... spring.
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